Jena Delk’s Blog

Twenty more minutes have passed and I am not any closer to being able 

to sleep. Just thinking about going to sleep makes me anxious.   

Hmmm!  I must be psychological. I just feel the need to push myself until I am exhausted. It works perfectly when I am on a poker trip. 

The physical experience from walking around large casinos, sitting at a poker table, and the mental energy expended playing the game really takes its toll on me. After playing I am barely able to pick out my clothes for the next day and finish personal grooming before dropping into bed to sleep. Unfortunately laying around the house does not exhaust me.

It’s now 3:45 am and I am fighting the urge to get up and tackle some sort of project. I have several that I keep putting off. Finish 2006 &

2007 taxes. Start 2008 taxes. (yes, I am that far behind)  File an appeal with my insurance company. Sort and organize owner’s manuals & receipts so that I can actually find something when I need it. Pay the bills. Evaluate and rebalance our retirement accounts.  No wonder I can’t sleep. My mind is on a mission.

Since coming home from Vegas my sleep cycle is all messed up. I sleep all day and am awake all night. My Mom used to say a baby was a ”bad baby” whenever their sleep cycle got turned around. I have always been a night owl and love sleeping in.  However, this is becoming I bit bothersome. I fell asleep at 9:30 am today and woke up at 5 pm. It is now 3 am and sleep eludes me again. I have become a “bad baby”.

How do I re-adjust my internal time clock?

My husband gets up at 6 am for work. It is not unusual for me to be wide awake as he struggles to get off to work. I feel guilty for lying around and being so unproductive. My health issues require minimal physical activity.

So, 

Why can’t I escape the voice of Mom?

                       …telling me how lazy I am? 

I must find a way to silence the voice.  Being “lazy” is by prescription.